MY HEART AF REBIRTH STORY PART I
[ HOW MY HEART SURGERY ACTIVATED ME ONTO THE HEART AF PATH TO DISCOVER, LOVE AND BE WHO I AM.]
What up! So dope to vibe w/ you!
A little background check on me: years ago, I was afraid to be who I am. So much, that I shunned AND REPRESSED THE "DARKER" PARTS OF ME, that FELT different, THAT FELT GUILT AND SHAME. Only to discover later on, that this stemmed from holding onto
onto old paradigms within my culture, upbringing, society's and own limiting beliefs.
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Fortunately, (as always) the universe had my back and in 2010, just as I got accepted into an exchange program in SPAIN (my dream then) I was led to discover, a hole in my heart (aka atrial septal defect). Thank the Youniverse that heart surgery began to awaken the shit out of me.
(the 'BIG hole' I had was avoid to feel, love, and ultimately BE - crazy huh? it took me years to connect the dots!)
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That's when I realized I had been 'empty' inside. LIVING THROUGH FEAR AND DISCONNECTED FROM, BEING LOVE. I thought to myself: I got a second chance. To FEEL ALIVE. To be REBORN. To Be me. Break Free from old paradigms, self-limiting beliefs, and anything else that held me back from being who I am & CREATING my Dopest REALITY!
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How?
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(WARNING : Gemini Moon Taking over for the next parts! I'll do my best to write to the point lol)
let me just say the journey to BE-Coming who you truly are is a HEART AF ride, dark AND epic at the same time! When you ultimately commit to your heart AND LET IT LEAD, there's A LOT TO CONFRONT. THE MIND.
BUT also so much MAGIC inside!
Bottom line, it's still... fuckin' worth it because on the other side, is freedom, light. love.
our badass souls signed up for this sh!t :P and the world needs us to be in our mission,
now more than ever.
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My rewritten story began during my heart surgery recovery when i felt called to birth "Dance Your Heart Out"
(a dance fundraiser I created to raise awareness about heart disease, and ultimately passion), which then (ironically!) inspired me to explore
what makes my HEART FEEL alive.
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That's when I felt called towards creative arts, such as music, dance, acting, stunts/film-fighting. Towards this whole new world of self-expression, I had never allowed myself to truly experience before.
From those spaces, I began to heal, and discover more of who I am...
that's when I was faced with my own shadows. The parts of me I tried to SUPPRESS because of who I thought** I needed to BE. It was only after a decade of 'fighting myself' and holding onto FEAR that I finally got tired of 'suffering'.
I started to play with the idea of a lighter, dope-feeling, perspective of
"What if I chose to love myself instead, who could I BE?"
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What if I leaped towards love (over fear of being rejected ) and finally embraced what makes me 'different' : my unconventional ways of thinking & being, of my sexuality, and of pursuing the path less-traveled as a freelance artist (stunt actress), & entrepreneur in coaching
& personal branding, No university degree just what my heart felt called to journey towards, LIFE university through heartaf af activating experiences !).
That's when my heart opened up to, The Spiritual G within me.
Bringing new perspective that helped me FEEL DOPE, in being DIFFERENT.
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Having said that, during the pandemic I did something I never thought I'd be able to do. I came out as 'bisexual', to my ASIAN family on Youtube (and it turned out way better than I thought!). Although I was terrified AF at the time, my ninja true warrior helped me BE courageous & vulnerable so I can honor my heart. This meant finally liberating myself by shining light and love on my sexuality in the face of fear, no matter what story I was taught to believe.
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All to say, this was the most badass FREE AF self-love act, I had ever done up until then.
That's when my heart began opening wider, calling me towards new heart af experiences like,
flying out to sit with Mother Ayahasuca for the first time. (I LOVE HER)
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Let's just say...It was EPIC AF & this experience initiated me to shift my entire world!
So much that, upon coming 'home', I sold most of my sh!t, gave up my apartment, my life and identity then, put a pause on my stunt'acting career and began my nomad journey in Costa Rica ( I discovered the divine feminine in me there & launched my first True Warrior (heartaf archetype) Workshop to help others break through fear from a space of empowered heart).
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From then, i continued to follow the pull, to Tulum,
for more heart activation.Grateful AF for both journeys helped further dissolve layers of my heart wall and limiting mind...
now recently, i have been called back to the jungle of costa rica, uvita where i am now starting to anchor into it as a home base... (more to come)
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So Who Am I ?
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More than ever, I AM 'feeling' my dope, heart af self, ALIVE & multi-vibrational -and ever changing.
A badass soul leading from the heart [the best I can]...
Which has been the biggest key and still today to Breaking-FREE
from fear, the matrix mentality, limiting beliefs/stories, to
Align with who I BE & Continue creating my dopest reality!
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On another note, I'm a 4/6 projector, Scorpio sun, pisces rising/north node and Gemini moon. Creativity, self-expression & intuition is my jam. I 'do' what feels dope in my heart, whether it be activatin' or brandin' others, co-creatin' on workshops/retreats, actin',dancin', rappin', warrior-in', podcastin'
to kickin' it with pacha mamma, goin' on spontaneous ventures w/ soul tribe & vibin' in community.
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All in all, I love to grow deep and I'm infinitely drawn to LEVELIN' UP my heart frequency. [that's when we can impact the world just being]
Truthfully, I feel like we're never-endingly healing lol, growin' through countless deaths and rebirths, un-layerin' more dope parts within us. There are many times I felt like giving up, questioned who the f*ck I am & where I'm grow-IN BUT if there's one thing I learned along this journey is, life doesn't get easy. We just aquire dope keys and unlock ways to navigate it in a more gentle, nurturing, compassionate, and trusting way. (The heart af way)
'as long as we are bravely committed towards where we feel called to grow,
we'll always be supported. Leading us to who and where we're meant to BE.
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Lastly, My vision for the world, is for us to lead with our hearts, and be our dope self. In our fullest expression. Co-creating from a place of love & LIVIN' our dopest life.
Then, there would be less dis-ease, less hate, less war,
less tragedy. You with me?
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Dare to let your heart lead,
and Create your DOPEST reality?!
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Peace & Much Love,
Christine, The Spiritual G and multiple
other heart af 'characters' <3
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