MY HEART AF REBIRTH STORY PART I
[ DISCOVER HOW MY HEART SURGERY ACTIVATED ME ONTO THE HEART AF PATH TO DISCOVER, LOVE AND BE WHO I AM.]
What up! So dope to vibe w/ you!
A little background check on me: years ago, I was afraid to be who I am. So much, that I shunned my 'darkness'; and thus repressed the parts of me, that were different. Only to discover later on, that this stemmed from holding onto
onto old paradigms within my culture, upbringing, society's and own limiting beliefs.
Fortunately, (as always) the universe had my back and in 2010, just as I got accepted into an exchange program in SPAIN (my dream then) I was led to discover, a hole in my heart (aka atrial septal defect). Thank the Youniverse that heart surgery began to awaken the shit out of me.
(the 'BIG ASS hole' I had was avoid to feel, love, and ultimately BE - crazy huh? it took me years to connect the dots!)
That's when I realized I had been 'empty' inside. I thought to myself: I got a second chance. To FEEL ALIVE. To be REBORN. To "do" what I love. Be me. Break Free from old paradigms, self-limiting beliefs, and anything else that held me back from being who I am & Living my Dopest Life!
That's when I realized I had felt 'empty' inside. I thought to myself: I got a second chance. To FEEL ALIVE. To be Reborn. To "do" what I love. Be me. Break Free from old paradigms, self-limiting beliefs, and anything that held me back from being who I am & Living my Dopest Life!
How?
(WARNING : Gemini Moon Taking over for the next parts! I'll do my best to write to the point lol )
Ouf, let me just say the journey to BE-Coming who you truly are is a HEART AF ride, dark AND epic at the same time! When you ultimately commit to your heart, there's SO much inner hustle.
BUT also so much MAGIC! Bottom line, it's fuckin' worth it
and our badass souls signed up for this sh!t :P
My rewritten story began with "Dance Your Heart Out", (a dance fundraiser I created to raise awareness about heart disease, and ultimately passion), which then (ironically!) inspired me to explore
what makes my HEART FEEL alive.
That's when I felt called towards creative arts, such as music, dance, acting, stunts/film-fighting.
Towards this whole new world of self-expression, I had never allowed myself to truly experience before.
From those spaces, I began to heal, and discover more of who I am...
Like any one else throughout the 'awakening' journey, I was faced with my own shadows. The parts of me I tried to SUPPRESS because of who I thought** I needed to BE. It was only after a decade of 'fighting myself' and holding onto FEAR that I finally got fed up of 'suffering'.
That's when I started to play with the idea of a lighter, dope-feeling, perspective of
"What if I chose to love myself instead, who could I BE?"
What if I leaped towards love (over fear of being rejected ) and finally embraced what makes me 'different' : my unconventional ways of thinking & being, of my sexuality, and of pursuing the path less-traveled as a freelance artist (stunt actress), & entrepreneur in coaching & personal branding,
No university degree just LIFE university - Fvck Yas!).
That's when my heart awakened, The Spiritual G within me.
Bringing new perspective that helped me FEEL DOPE, in being DIFFERENT.
Having said that, during the pandemic I did something I never thought I'd be able to do. I came out as 'bisexual', to my ASIAN family on Youtube (and it turned out way better than I thought!). Although I was terrified AF at the time, my ninja true warrior helped me BE courageous & vulnerable so I can fight for my heart. This meant finally liberating myself by shining light and love on my sexuality in the face of fear,
no matter what story I was taught to believe.
All to say, this was the most badass FREE AF self-love act, I had ever done up until then.
That's when my heart began opening wider, calling me towards new heart af experiences like,
flying out to sit with Mother Ayahasuca for the first time. (I LOVE HER)
Let's just say...It was EPIC AF & this experience initiated me to shift my entire world!
So much that, upon coming 'home', I sold most of my sh!t, gave up my apartment, put a pause on my stunt'acting career and began my nomad journey in Costa Rica (where I discovered the divine feminine in me & launched my first True Warrior Workshop).
Most recently, my heart hit me up to grow in Tulum, and boy was that a DEEP AF activation.
Grateful AF for both journeys helped further dissolve layers of my heart wall and limiting mind...
So Who Am I ?
More than ever, I AM 'feeling' my dope, heart af self, ALIVE & multi-vibrational -
Christine, The Spiritual G, a Creative Artist, Ninja Warrior & Divine Feminine...and ever changing.
A badass soul leading from the heart [the best I can]...
Which has been the biggest key and still today to Breaking-FREE from the matrix mentality,
Aligning with who I BE & Creating my dopest reality!
On a different note, I'm a 4/6 projector, Scorpio sun, pisces rising/north node and Gemini moon. A true nomad currently stayin' near MTL (no car to my name, and real 'home'-base other than my heart). Creativity, self-expression & intuition is my jam. I 'do' what feels dope in my heart, whether it be activatin' or brandin' others, co-creatin' on workshops/retreats, actin',dancin', rappin', warrior-in', writin', to kickin' it with pacha mamma, goin' on spontaneous ventures with my soul tribe & vibin' in community.
All in all, I love to go deep and I'm infinitely drawn to LEVELLIN' UP.
Truthfully, I feel like we're never-endingly healing lol, growin' through countless deaths and rebirths, un-layerin' more light, and dope parts within us. There are many times I felt like giving up, questioned who the f*ck I am & where I'm grow-IN BUT if there's one thing I learned with certainty is
'as long as we are bravely committed towards the HEART AF path,
we'll always be supported. Leading us to who we're meant to BE.
Lastly, My vision for the world, is for us to lead with our hearts, and be our dope self.
In our fullest expression. Co-creating from a place of love & LIVIN' our dopest life.
Then, there would be less dis-ease, less hate, less war, less tragedy.
You feel me?
Dare to ACTIVATE who you BE,
and Create your DOPEST reality?!\
Peace & Much Love,
Christine, The Spiritual G and multiple other heart af 'characters' <3